"I love you",
you said,
and I waited for a
"but…" 

but instead came
your arms
and a
"no matter what".

seagames 2015

Hi b,

After 11 grueling days, seagames 2015 is finally over. Our relationship definitely had its ups and downs throughout this tough period, fighting with fatigue and v v v tight schedules, but I'm just really glad that it's settled and we are more than fine :-) Very proud of you for going through everyday, and I  really admire your passion and drive at just 19 years old. Even though this admiration for you sometimes turn into insecurities and inferiority, I'm very thankful for always making me feel a gazillion better with just a few words, and for always putting me first. I promised to be more understanding, and I will really try my best to keep it. Thank you for putting up with me all these while, entertaining me 24/7 even though you are so hella busy, and squeezing any free time you have to spend it with the overly-attached me. And I really appreciate it, (and you).

I will miss you for the next 21 days.

I love you. 

(even though I don't think you will read this, but it doesn't make it any less untrue hehe)

Love should feel like the top of three pillows and the bottom of four blankets on a lazy Saturday morning. It’s where time stops and the world gladly sits on hold and the only thing that matters is that you continue to breathe in moment after crawling moment.

Love should feel like a nook made just for one, where under their arms and over their chest comprises a sanctuary only you can fit in. It’s where you worship their pores and pray for their happiness and are blessed with an overwhelming presence of bliss no organized religion can give you. 

Love should feel like a cocktail. It should explode when they throw you down on a bed and burn when they leave you for a busy workday and be as unpredictable as the combinations that comprise your very being. 

Love should feel like a dance, where nerves poke through your skin and excitement radiates your smile and sweaty palms grasp the youthfulness of desire. You’ll romanticize moments in notebooks and cherish fading pictures and promise that every feeling of every second will never be forgotten. 

Love should feel like a car ride on a hot day, with windows rolled down and a radio up and hair slithering across your face. You know them like the words of the song you sing along to and you swear, if you look just beyond the road, you can see your freedom. An overwhelming contentment burns deep in your spine and rises to your chest and you’re left smiling for no reason at all. 

Love should feel like a smooth shot of whiskey. You’re seduced by rebellion and pleasured by the burn and you begin to forget those who comprise your past with every additional trip to the bar. 

Love should feel a sundress, held close to the chest while free to flow whichever way the wind takes it. You can’t wait for the season to strike and the temperature to rise so you can flaunt every inch of sun kissed skin. 

Love should feel a sundress, held close to the chest while free to flow whichever way the wind takes it. You can’t wait for the season to strike and the temperature to rise so you can flaunt every inch of sun kissed skin. 

Love should feel like a blackout. You can’t remember a time without them or when you two started falling or how many kisses contributed to your loss of control. Every morning you wake up wondering how you got here and what you did that lead the two of you to crash into each other. 

Love should feel like a marathon. It should exhilarate your heart and exhaust your mind and challenge your resolve. You’ll tell yourself you can’t keep going as you continue to put one foot in front of the other, taking every helpful and rejuvenating cup of water along the way.

At the end, you’ll realize how many contributed to your happiness and success.

GLHF

Tomorrow is finally his first SEAGAMES match!!!!!!! Hehe, visited him for the last time before he's on a sea games mode! Will miss this one for the next few days (or weeks cause he's going on a 3 week holiday )-: HAHA can't deal), good luck b you got this whole water boy shit under control. 

x

bailamos + kaleidoscope 2015

Felt really good to finally perform once again for SCGS and ACJC, this time as an alumni. Firstly, Direction (Bailamos 2015) was one of the most challenging dance I have ever performed for - I mean, dancing blind (90%) was tough and with only one month of rehearsals, it was tough I got to say. But I guess the critics and the emotions that filled the stage, especially for the last performance, was just worth it. Dancing with my SC juniors and senior was great, glad that we pushed through together as a 7-people team. After 2 days of Bailamos, it was time for SCGS' Kaleidoscope. I guess the time spent together with DKG (missing Sa) was the highlight of everything, so glad we managed to come back together to perform and yet enjoy it thoroughly. Even though rehearsals weren't as frequent and tough as ACJC's, I was so glad the item pushed through and performing in front of a full house at UCC, I am so glad to have the feeling back again. Gaining energy from the bursting concert hall - I miss performing. Yet again, I need a break hahaha feels so good to leave the house without worrying about being late for rehearsals/ carrying a bulky bag filled with dance attire. Lazy life lazy days ahead of me. Till August, I am finally free.

alumni in Direction

May 2015

Hot Pursuit with mei followed by dinner @ Park before dance rehearsal

my bitch is finally back and we finally had our double mcspicy challenge hehe, before another dance rehearsal sigh pie!!!! but thank you nigga for the flyknit zoom agility i love it x

 

bfast at Brawns and Brains the next day > Big Game > Doongji Korean Restaurant with Sean

had a celebratory lunch with the family at Shima Restaurant at Goodwood Park hotel > pitch perfect 2 > zhi char with rays and claire!!!!!

Sean surprised me with Prego breakfast buffet (the pastries were pretty good!!!! the rest were average?) and then managed to catch SPY before having dinner at Nihon Mura Express before trig!!!!!

late night dance rehearsal and sean drove to pick me up for supper yay!!!!!!!
 had supper @ Spize yumz,  :*) and bumped into mr zaks…. HAHAHHAA

spent the day juz lazing with sean before he went for training :-)

finally caught up with sa at killney kopitiam before meeting sean at Hoopla cafe and then dance rehearsal after 

dance for the whole day till 5pm before heading over to hock keng gor gor's house for a welcome back party for Lina, Ed, Melissa and Liam :-)